Monday, March 29, 2010

Kings Meadow

The sweet mist from the ocean below sprays against your face, a thin and stunning fog settling around you, encasing you in your own little sanctuary; deprived from the world. The early morning sunrise bleeds into the water as if God himself had cut his wrists and let the beauty bleed into the ocean. The blood spreads further, reaching for you and only you as the Sun is pulled higher into the sky, occasionally hiding behind the looming clouds, teasing. Always teasing. Early morning.

The turmoil of the ocean laps against the wall of rock you now perch yourself upon. The clashing, crashing, and groaning of the ocean against the Cliffs of Moher continue the war between water and earth. Your bare feet dangle over the edge of the Cliffs while rocks push against your bare skin. One push. One small amount of pressure and you could free fall through pure serenity, as if floating on air. Diving into the swirling mass of water, a beautiful sway of art on the surface, beneath a reverie of silence and numbness, seems like a dream that could only end in definate silence that would forever seperate your soul from heaven on earth.

Heaven on earth. Ireland. This place was only described in one word. Breathless. But what is beauty when you observe it everyday ? Does the beauty in itself become more ordinary than perfect ? Will these seas of green ever be seen as beauty to the eye that has beheld them it's whole existence ? Or will that of everyday city life become more beautiful than nature ? Can beauty really be ordinary ? Can the ordinary be the extraordinary ?

What is city life ? The rush of wind caused by a thousand cars as they scramble through everyday life, only driving from location to location. Looming skyscrapers casting dark shadows upon the world, masking the elegance of real architecture. Smog so thick, even the bare heat of the summer makes breathing almost impossible to the strongest of lungs.

The sun has taken it's place in the sky, full and bright without a dark cloud to hide behind. Soft whisps of pure white clouds decorate the sky and the water below. The once angered ocean has calmed, water so blue swimming in it would feel like swimming in the sky. Your world is serene. It is staring into the face of bliss and stunning beauty, and the feeling like heaven is opening it's arms for only you to enjoy that reminds you of that one little word. Breathless.

As you stand from your perch you pull a string from your sweater and release it into the cool sea breeze. You watch as it floats away, dancing in the air; watch as nature turns it over in her sweet hands ripping the man-made string fiber by fiber.

This is the way it is meant to be.

This is peace. How could you have doubted it ?

This is Ireland.

This is home.

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Hit the Floor.

I see you walking home alone and your face is alive and bright but you can't see how weak you are 'cause I could end this tonight.
Tap, tap. Tap, tap. Tap, tap. My high heels click against the sidewalk in their own happiness. Tap, tap. Tap, tap. Tap, tap. Sigh. This night was exactly what I needed to relieve all the stress exams had brought. Week after week after week of studying with seemingly no end could only be solved with bottle after bottle after bottle of alcohol, loud rave music, and hot, sweaty people all aiming for the same release. Somewhere in the crowd I lost my friends but I am used to walking home alone, I don't live far from our favourite bar, I just have to cut through the industrial park a few streets away from my own.
It's the feeling you get when you think that someone behind is watch you, well, I can tell you now that person is me and I'm about to make it right.
Tap, tap. Tap, tap. Tap, tap. The clicks of my heels against the ground echo through the abandoned park. Tap, thud. Tap, thud. Tap, thud. I am not alone. There is someone here with me. Tap, thud. Tap, thud. Tap, thud. Are they following me ? Ugh. A shiver just ran down my spine. I never noticed how creepy this park was until now. There are many shadows hiding those who do not want to be seen in the moonlight. Tap, thud. Tap, thud. Tap, thud. I'm sure it is just no one. Just a silly drunk man, barely able to walk. But why isn't he stumbling ? I am afraid and still dizzy from the smoke and alcohol. Ta-, thud. Ta-, thud. Ta-, thud.
I creep up from behind, touch your neck, move down your spine. You take a look and breathe so sharp, just a matter of time.
I can feel him behind me, hear his breath and footsteps getting closer, faster. I need to escape. Gasp ! I can feel his warm, sweaty hand trail down my exposed neck and back. There is no doubt in his intention. I need to escape. I try to run but he is there, grabbing my arm, hand over my mouth, pulling me into the darkest of shadows. My feet drag on the ground, the sound like fingers on a chalkboard to my panicked ears. My mind blacks for a moment as I can feel clothing ripped off parts of my body. The cold air bites at my warm skin, reminding me to stay awake, to fight. His hand is still in my mouth as he forces himself into me. I can`t see his face through my bleeding tears.
``Don`t scream,`` I ask of you but then you let one out so now it`s time to go.
His hand pulls from my mouth for a quick moment so he can support himself as he violates me. I take my chances like heroin to an addict. A blood curdling scream erupts from my chest, my throat, my soul. Though I cannot see much I can feel his alarm, his anxiety. It is his turn to need an escape, his turn to feel the raging fear.
I come down on you like a ton of bricks, all over, so it`s time to go.
He finishes what he came for then collapses on my body, not allowing me to breathe under his weight. Is he going to murder me ? He lifts himself up, quickly running away while pulling his clothing back on. He stays in the shadows but by now my screams refuse to cease.
Why do you take it all ? Why do I beg for more ? I never thought this is how I`d hit the floor.
I, too, pull my clothing back on and run out to the nearest street. I left my cell phone at home, dead and on my nightstand. I stopped the first car to cross my path and together we moved through the motions. Call the police, go to the hospital, go through the police interviews, arrange for a therapist.
Take this from me. I don`t wanna hurt you.
He will be caught.
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The child will not be mine. I cannot take care of the devil.
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* Italics: Hit the Floor -- Bullet for my Valentine.

Drowning in a Sea of People

The sway of bodies back and forth, back and forth, back and forth. Swirling, twirling like a current under the ocean. The push of unfamiliar bodies against your own, sweat mixing and dripping from every bit of exposed skin, contributing to the wreak of overused perfume, Axe, and weed.
Hands materialize from seemingly nowhere to grip onto your clothing and pull you towards their orgin, others pushing you away, forcing you in all directions. The sweet sounds of cheering and applauding leave the background music barely heard. Your own voice rises above the crowd, echoing the melancholic lyrics that sound so familiar to your expectant ears.
There is pain but it is a pleasant pain. You welcome it to your body as much as the people around you do. It is a pain you inflict upon each other in appreciation. You and the crowd are one, supporting each other when the time calls forth. No one is left behind.
This is life in the mosh pit.

Monday, March 22, 2010

Feint.

Swirls of red, orange, yellow; dancing, taunting, playing. Wisp after wisp jumping into the air, ridiculing you, only to disappear seconds after.

Staring. You are staring as you both play the game. You are unable to blink or look away as it's beauty beckons to you. It reaches out to you, fingers grasping at air but never venturing far from it's home.

Crackles and snaps like teasing and tormenting. It tries to seduce you like a cruel mistress, a vixen. You have seen it's beauty but do you know it's destruction ? Inside you're cold; can you take it's heat ? You have been warned of it's danger but can you resist ? Resist the pull as it draws you closer, and closer, and closer.

It reaches. You mirror it's movement. Before you can touch it it disappears. Hiding. Mocking. Luring. Enticing you to be the first to make contact. Closer, closer. You reach out, expecting it to hide. It snaps forward engulfing your hands. Heat. Burning heat like those in the deepest, darkest pits of hell.

Scream. All you can do is scream as it climbs up your clothing, trying to pull itself up your arm, singeing hair and skin alike, and sending a thick and grotesque smell that no nose could ignore.

Panic. Panic all around you. You're pushed to the ground, cold water splashes against your skin but it's too late. The pain is still there. Looking at your arm, you scream. Skin hangs from your bones, muscle and veins burnt away. Blood drips from the orifice and slides down your exposed bone. The world is spinning, spinning, spinning. You choke on the air around you before: blackness.

You open your eyes to the white, blinding light. Shock pulses through your aching veins as you recall your tragic plight through the stories of those that witnessed it. They tell you of what they saw but only you can remember what you felt.

Emptiness, a solution, insufferable pain. The fire was a way to feel, a way out of the void, out of your personal blackhole. Those few moments of hell were the best you've felt in a long time; they were the only thing you've felt in a long time. And now you start again. Back to the void, back to the emptiness, back to the numb. What will be your savior now ? Death flashes it's teeth.

Black Box Heart

"Run ! Run quickly !"

The voice echoes in my head. I do as I'm told; it's the only voice I can trust. Is this the last time I would hear it ? Could I ever see the face--taste the mouth--that the voice originated from ? The curly black hair sweeping in the way of brilliant pools of gray that the voice sees with, both contrasted against flawless pale skin, as white as cream.

Screams, yells, and shouts awake me from my memories, jerking me into reality. My legs seem to have their own mind as they hurdle me over obstacles that may get in my way. Men, women, and children alike follow me in a seemingly never ending chase, their footsteps softened by the snowy ground making them unable to be heard. My luck, always seemingly against me, appeared to be with me in this cursed time as I heard a shout over the crowd. The Tracker is not in town ! Regrettably, my luck ran short as the black foggy mist that always danced upon the white snow top in contrast followed me in my wake betraying my escape path and showing the angered mob behind me where I had been. By now the cult Oracle would have deciphered the escape route I had planned in my mind when we started with wild chase. I quickly glance back, hoping my feet could keep me from tripping while I watched large portions of the mob break off to take different paths, disappearing in the white forests. Confirmation. They would have me blocked off within a few more meters.

I was left but with one choice. To fly. I couldn't help but sigh in relief as I released my wings from their storage beneath my skin. They unfolded, the beautiful greasy black feathers of the underside resembling those of a raven's were visible to myself, while the white feathers like a dove's as blanched as the snow blinded the mob chasing me, causing them to cringe slightly and shield their eyes. My wings caught the wind quickly and I was launched into the slightly cold and bitterly dry wind. Because the mob had dispersed itself so, there were not enough of them to follow me. You see, flying was the one trait every member of my cult had in common. If a war between us began in the air, I would truly win. From the air I looked down below at the beauty of my world, even in the chaos.

On this planet of ours, which is far away from your own, we have two distinct lands, each with their own culture, of which we call the Cults. The Cult I was born into is known as the Darkness, though if you were to explore the regions of such you would not be able to understand why it is named as it is. Our jurisdiction is covered in the most pure snow to be seen in the universe and when the Sun casts it's rays against the surface of our lands it creates a glow upon the earth and the people. It has been written that the Darkness shines as if made of the finest cut diamonds. However, to sustain the snow the weather is bitter and cold and only to those born within the Darkness' Cult can stand it as easily as if it were a hot summer's day. No weather truly effects our skin, as we are always warm like a fire was permanently lit inside our hearts and pumped through our veins as surely as blood pumps through yours. Sadly, as you travel further and further south, away from the center of our land to the outskirts, the blindingly beautiful wonderland of snow slowly fades into a barren swamp-like terrain. Yes, once our jurisdiction ends the jurisdiction of the Light begins. In the land of the Light all your fears are granted. The landscape resembles a graveyard of which could not be mustered in the darkest and most hellish pits of imagination or nightmare. Vegetation rots eternally, their moans echoing through the still air. Swamps thrive and even the Sun refuses to shine over the land, terrified of the things that hide in it's shadows and the darkness that enshrouds the land and the people. There is a question among both lands that can only be answered once the true hearts of the people are discovered. Why are the lands named so differently to their true nature ?

The people of the Light see nothing of what they want, only of what they fear, and with that they have come to appreciate what they do have and to find happiness even in the darkest of times. They are the warm-hearted people of this planet, always generous, as if they were born with a smile burned into their hearts. However, living in a world like mine, where everything you want and desire is given to you, nothing truly seems happy or enjoyable anymore. Thus the people hold their darkness and shadow inside, never to be content with anything. These are my people, the people I was born to rule. I was born their Princess and became their Queen.

For 500 years I watched over them and lead them to prosperity, through the happiest times the history books have ever recorded. Yes, it was said that only I was able to release and fulfill their deepest desires. However, I was given a major flaw and, unlike everyone of my successors, I was unable to complete my soul mission in life: to bear a child that could reign over the Darkness. It was not from infertility that I was unable to bear the child, but rather from the will not to. Unlike the Light where no body has any special ability aside from mind reading (which is useless when everyone can do it), my Cult gives powers to all it's subjects. There is only one catch that makes us cursed. Only one person may have one power at a single point in time. Every power had to remain unique. The Queen before me had the ability to speak to anything and everything. From the ground to the clouds and the ceilings to the floors, everything and anything had it's own voice. The Queen's husband, and the King of the Darkness, obtained the ability to shape shift to biotic and abiotic things alike. It is unlikely for a child to inherit both of their parents' abilities, as one must take care of the child, but again I played the rarity card and inherited both of my parents' gifts. As I took my first breath they released their last. Though I was a great exception to many rules, this one rule, the only rule I wished to be an exception to, still applied. For my powers to be unique my parents had to forfeit theirs in the only way possible. They had to give up their lives. It is more often than not the gender of the baby that predicts which parent is to forfeit their abilities. Men often take over their mothers' powers while the women take over their fathers' ability.

It is this rule that scared me, that forced me into desperate action. Since the beginning of our creation, the monarch of the Darkness would dictate until their 500th birthday then the night of their 500th the monarch would choose one of their lovers to consummate their love with in hopes of creating a new monarch. Two nights ago was my 500th birthday and I knew exactly who I would tie the knot with but when the thought of creating a male heir occurred to me, I was scared. Even after 500 years I still felt I didn't know enough of the world. Then the thought of creating a female heir surfaced and I was terrified even more. My own death seemed little to worry about in the place of my King's. In the place of the one I have loved with all my heart and soul. We had been friends since birth and over the last 200 years my heart had begun to beat only his name. Lucaas, Lucaas, Lucaas.

When the night came to justify our love we were terrified for our fates, each of us willing to sacrifice our self for the other. So we concocted a supposedly foolproof plan. We faked our consummation. This is not to say we did not have our fun, it was impossible not to without getting caught, we just managed to do so safely. Lucaas' power is that of a shield. He spent all 500 years of his life perfecting his ability, much like the rest of us do, and was strong at sustaining it without having to put all his concentration into it. Lucaas was able to shield his DNA from meeting mine in the procreation of a child that night. We thought we were invincible but we were too cocky. We know not of how, but one of the chambermaids found out of our deceitful act and had the word spread throughout the Cult by the next afternoon. Now here I am. Running from the Darkness, running from my home, and running from the civilians I had loved and had held so close to my bosom for many years.

I worried for him greatly, but knew no harm could come to him as long as he veiled himself in his shield. So I flew higher and higher, feeling the pressure press against my skin, my bones, my heart. It threatened to break me, crumple me as easily as paper in the hands of a child. I couldn't help but look around to watch as my people returned to the main city, unable to capture the Queen. There was a beauty in the two Cults as below me they blended and swirled together like Yin and Yang. Despite the pressure of the atmosphere, I feel at peace. For the first time in a long time, I felt utter bliss.

Suddenly a tremor of cold rushed through my veins, freezing my body to the core. I had never known what it was like to feel cold, but I knew this was it. My mind began panicking. Had my wings stopped beating !? I couldn't feel them anymore ! Oh gawd. I was falling ! I had to be. Free falling ! I knew the impact with the ground would kill me. I felt dizzy, my eyes blurred over and I felt like retching. Suddenly I can feel them again ! My wings ! My savior ! In fact, I could feel my whole body as the familiar feeling of warmth spread through my body. I can't breathe, a moment of panic sweeping through my body before I remember I can survive within the absence of air. My eyesight returns but all around me remains black. Not a sound is heard, not even my own voice as I let a small squeak escape my lips. I feel tired, no, I feel exhausted. The minimal amount of energy I had that had mixed with adrenaline was used up as I fought my way through the barrier of my world and the Unknown, of which you call Space. My wings are useless now. The Unknown has taken a hold of my travel path and all I could do was wait for Fate to take me where I was to belong. My eyes slowly drooped shut, despite my desperate attempts to stay awake. My last thought was a prayer that both Lucaas and myself remain alive.

Burning ? Burning ! It was hotter than anything I have ever felt before ! Even the fire that raged within my veins was put to shame from the flames that engulfed my body, but why was I not melting away ? Why were the feathers of my wings not shriveling into ashes in front of me ? How could I still be alive ? It had to be Lucaas. I could feel his shield, but I could also feel it peeling away the closer I was pulled to the odd new land that swirled beneath me. It was beautiful, though not as beautiful as the Cults. This land was an exotic swirl of pure white, deep blues, and darker greens. So many colours danced upon the surface of the beautiful globe that I couldn't even comprehend them all. Even as I spun closer and closer, feeling the heat more and more, I couldn't help but be mesmerized by the view beneath me. It took the extreme intensity of the fire that engulfed me as the last layers of shield peeled away and left me vulnerable to everything to wake me from my dazed state. I only had a second to think before I saw it. The dark greens and browns became solid shapes of trees and ground. I was going to collide into both.

Three. I tried to fly away from the ground, back towards the sky.

Two. My wings were damaged. They couldn't fight against the gravity that pulled me downward.

One. I furled my wings around my body and turned my back towards the threat of pain before my inevitable impact with the ground. I flinched as my whole body tensed with the first feeling of a branch scraping against the membrane behind my feathers. I winced with every stab, slice, and sliver that dug into my plush skin until finally came the dreaded impact of the earth that I could see through the slashes in my wings in the last of my airborne seconds. Mixed hues of brown hid beneath the cover of luscious green grass. I could only hope in vain that the vegetation would cushion my fall. It didn't. I screamed at the searing pain of the fragile bones in my wings snapping into many different pieces and shards. Quickly, I retracted my shattered aerial devices in one swift movement and, using the tree that had just tore my body to pieces, I stood.

More pain seared through my back, chest, and head. My body rocked and shook as I stumbled around through the thick forest. I could hear noises up ahead, ones I could not recognize, ones I have never heard before. I continued swaying through the trees, trying not to trip over the thick exposed roots that clung to the ground, sucking up the energy of the earth for it's master to recycle. The noise became louder and louder, like the whooshing sound of oxygen as I fly through the air at my highest speed.

I finally see a break in the woods, a bright light of hope. Maybe there would be someone to help me, to aid me in recovery ! As I burst through the barrier and protection of the woods I see that this world is more different than I imagined. Metal monsters rushed by at incredible speeds, each containing at least one person within it's dastardly belly, buildings scraped the sky at heights only the tallest of my castle's towers could reach, citizens walked tightly and in groups but still comfortably, as if it were an everyday occurrence to be packed like rodents.

I stumbled forward once more, bumping into one of many in a crowd. She was a petite girl but the scowl on her face and the bite in her tone as she told me to "Back off" quickly eliminated her innocent and pleasant appearance. I flinched back then tried asking another of the crowd where we were, but only received a cold glare as if I were his greatest rival. I asked more and more people only to gain responses of equal, if not worse, reactions. As people continued walking I saw many pairs of eyes analysing me, my clothing, and my state of mind. I stepped back from the crowd and took in my surroundings again. Nothing was familiar. I was lost and there was no one to help me. I had no friends, no family, and none of my people for comfort. The yearning for home, already strong within my chest, grew more than I thought possible. Tears flooded from my eyes, decorating my cheeks and clothing with streaks and splatters of salty water. I cried for several moments before remembering Lucaas. I would be strong for he who helped me escape. I would survive in this concrete jungle.

In this cruel world I would have to start again; define a new identity and blend in with the crowd. I would have to learn their ways, speak their languages, and adapt to their ways of life. Or at least until I could return home. I would stay strong for Lucaas, if not for myself. And with that realization I began my observation of humankind on the strange planet; of their mannerisms, their lifestyles, and their cultures. And I began my wait. My wait until I was beckoned back home. Until Lucaas and I were reunited once more. Until the Darkness enveloped me once more.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Running.

Running. Running. Always running. This night is running. Who are they ? Why are they following me ? Why chase me ? It hurts to breathe; the cold is stinging my throat, my chest is seizing. Are my legs even there anymore ? I can feel my feet. They hurt. The jagged rocks are slicing and piercing the tender skin of my feet but I don't have my shoes, not anymore. I had dropped them a while ago, but when ? Where ? I can't think of this right now; I'm not thinking about anything right now. I can't hear a thing past the erratic beating of my heart, the pounding of several pairs of feet, and their shouts, their yells. Oh God, their shouts and yells. Vile, vulgar shouts of want, of craving. What could drive them to this ? Who in humanity had the heart to do this ? To make someone feel the fear, anxiety, and pain I feel now; it's monstrous. How many of these soulless beasts are chasing ? Four ? Five ? I dare not look, running is my focus. Running. Running. Not tripping, falling, damning myself. I could almost feel them reaching for me, crushing me to the ground. They were strong, even from the small glance I had gained before we began this game, I could tell.
I am running out of places to go, getting further and further into the unfamiliar backstreets of the slums. How did I get here ? When did I take a wrong turn ? I know the answer to these questions but I don't want to remember. Everything is dark around here, I can't tell one house from another. I've been running straight for a while, where is the turn ? Oh ! There ! To the left ! This is my way out, I can feel it. Another left ! That should take me out to where I entered this God forsaken place.
My muscles are screaming, voicing their pains through my own. I can feel my legs now, they won't let me forget them again. I feel dizzy, I haven't eaten all day. I wish I could stop, just stop running. And breathe. In. Out. In. Out. A steady rhythm that escapes me. How easily I have taken advantage of breathing.
Someone shouts. My name. What is my name, they ask ? I can't answer, I don't want to answer. Even if I want to a sob is caught in my throat, choking me more. Yes, I wanted to cry, breakdown and cry. They shout again, a mix of all voices. The urge to cry is lessened under the pressure of the fear that drowns me.
I am back on the main road. I know where to go. For now. I can only race forward, to the park I would play in when I was a child. Did my feet just sigh ? The transition from the rough and unforgiving road to the soft, plush, and luscious green grass feels reviving. The cold droplets of rainwater from the light shower we received this morning are soaking through the cuts, scrapes, slivers, and sore spots of my skin.
My legs are threatening to buckle and fall against the earth below but they know they have to continue moving. This is our survival. I can see everything around me in the moonlight, so familiar. I know this park better than anywhere else in my city. Every childhood memory reflected in the park's grounds, from the first memory to this.
Options. Options. So many options, but what are the outcomes ? I will just let my legs carry me to where they know best. The forest. I can see it in my mind. It is a place of pure darkness at night, the moon's light barely able to pierce the veil of leaves, branches, and animals. I can feel the few tears that had formed from running through the cold and blink them away. As known, the forest is dark and my eyes attempt to readjust, everything is barely visible. Again my feet detest as I run over twigs, thorns, insects, and fallen trees. The forest is large, being the only one preserved within the walls of the city and the only sanctuary of our local animals. People were not permitted to run off the trail created for recreation, but I have no choice, I have to hide.
I hear them scream, yell, and shout. They've reached the boarder of the forest. They are going to give up the chase ! I did it ! I slow down. I can walk now. My aching chest is heaving to catch up my lost breath. Oh precious breath, how I have missed you. Wait ? Their yells and shouts have stopped. What is happening ? Trees are cracking under someones weight. They are running through the forest. After me. I have to keep running. I must move faster and faster. My legs listen, feet pushing off the ground. They must be able to hear me as well. Haste is the word here. Running through the forest is still going to take at least ten minutes before I see the other side. I just want this to be over ! I want to be home, sipping hot chocolate by the television with mother. Is it getting colder ? Run, just run. Running on instinct. My body is giving up. Pain, searing pain. Cramps in every muscle. They are getting closer. I can hear them behind me. Closer. Closer. I am slowing down. I see the edge of the forest. Must keep running, running, running. They are within arms length. Always running. This night is running. I am so tired. Can I do this anymore ? My hope is gone. Black. This night is black. Life. My life is lived.

Welcome

Sleepy, sleepy, tired. So very, very tired. Your eyes drag and droop, barely able to guide you to your bedroom. Such a long, long day it has been. Taking off your clothing is a chore and putting on pajamas is even more work. Each step you take seems to take more and more time while your body screams to be in bed. Sleeping. You reach your destination. Bed. Sleep. Comfort of the utmost. It seems your head is heavier than ever as it approaches the pillow, each millisecond seeming like centuries passing before the next. Finally, with the cushioning of a mattress under your body and pillow under your head, sleep settles over your body like a thin layer of dust.

The sandman further beckons you to follow him deeper and deeper into his realm of wonder. Stars, planets, constellations. They all pass you in a blur as it seems you transcend time and space into your own universe where anything may occur. The good, the bad, the just plain ugly. Colours swirl to life; blue and yellow, purple and pink, green and orange. All colliding and combining in beautiful twists and turns, exploding upon contact with each other creating stunning abstact shapes. Abstract shapes that contort themselves into people, places, things.

Dreams and nightmares. The following are exactly that; a collection of one woman's dreams and nightmares that she wishes to share with the world. Do you think you can handle the sick and twisted things that squeeze and conjure themselves into her dark and long abandoned mind ? If so, welcome to the Silhouetted Memories of me. Good luck.